Ivy Ong
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Let it be this way.
Came back from Leisure World after 2 days 1 night w J. he was so generous to give the casino 200 bucks or probably more, blame it all on his "gd" luck. lol im like his lucky star, thanks to me we did nt cme back empty handed *laugh its a gd experience and ive to say its addictive. onces you win more, you get greedy and wants to win even more. its a bad bad sign. we kept hopping to other machines once we gt enuff cash from it. hehee its really smth we learnt otherwise, you'd really end up losing everything. anw, days spent w him were awesome .. where things are just the same like be4. nth could feels better than he warm me up with his cuddle when i'm shivering w cold :) he's more than a friend, just like a lover.
im so lazy to even move my butt right nw. it feels gd spending sunday without doing nth, just lying on my cosy bed. alright, its time to get my butt up to do smth productive.
& on this very 17th, it could be our 44th.
xo
Busy busy wks. and yay, im off today!
Just a simple update from the start of Sep till nw:
-Went to USS. had great day @ there, totally worth going!
-Dined w Tricia & Alvin @ PS Cafe. amazed by the nice ambience. supposed to meet J but he disappointed me by nt turning up in the end
- Had a short catch up w Pris!
- Met up w Jason for dinner
- Met up w Deroy. was supposed to catch Resident Evil: Afterlife but was all filling fast or sold out :( gonna make an online booking nx time.
going for eyebrow embroidery touch up tmr, like finally.
I dont like it fast in this way. so, move slow and i'll follow.
Went to pray dad today. its been awhile since i last prayed him. too many things to tell, i hope he can knw them all. anw, its my first time meeting up w Michael ytd. surprisingly, he shared alot of his personal and internal stuff w me. so, i guessed he must really trust me alot uh. laugh* hopefully he can do well in his movie film :) had supper @ thomson w Deroy on one of e days. had sudden crave for waffle ice-cream but all closed and we had ice-cream cake instead. i think ive almost cured my bike phobia but its still kinda scary tho', like im gonna fly away anytime.
Work task is easy to handle and thus most of the time, im busy acting busy. Just one prob, im late for work almost everyday fuckkk. i gotta kick this bad habit before boss kicks me outta e company like srsly. i knw she aint easy person and thats what alot of pple told me before i came to 6th floor. she has even decided to put a cctv just to check on me ?!?! okie, i felt insulted. she could have given me first warning right? but no. if thats e case, i guessed my days are numbered. oh well .. let's see hw things goes
I appreciated e lil' effort by bringing me to e beautiful bridge which is quite a long distance as tho' we were climbing up e hills, i wore e big foot size slipper of urs while you walked w bare foot from e beginning till the end without saying a single word. but happy moment wont last
what if im tired and quit this love game one day. will you hold me back if im gone for real ?
things are unpredictable and perhaps im fickle.i feel that i've changed, changed to someone i dunno who
its complex and no one can understand the way we handle things. it doesnt matter cause i owe no one explanation. i do things e way i want. i'd even give my all to get e things i want. thats e way i am. im sick of guys who try to control me when they're simply just a friend of mine. dont cross e line even if you're a close friend of mine. this will just annoy me further. get jealous for all i care srsly. just take it or leave it
credits to devine :)
so whats nw? i was in a mess. i tried to find back the lost feelings when J sent me those mms but alot of doubts came into my mind. it moved me yet i felt the ache in every single inch of my heart. there are many things he couldnt give but only one thing, the indescribable and unconditional love. but he can nvr knw hw much i need him to be there when i need him most. im afraid history might repeat. Sometimes i wish things werent so complicated, everything would be alright.
headed to town to catch up w dearie & kph ytd. sakae sushi > express pedi & medi > shop > dim sum > durians & boon lay ave to find J. i just spent too much ytd so im keeping my broke ass at hme right nw. alright, im just plain lazy to move my big fat ass.
